Broken pieces of my heart

Ben's Lucky Day

2009-03-13T09:29:00.012+08:00

Yayness, I finally have blog the mood to blog! :D

It was all fun in the sun with Ben at West Coast Park!
And when I say "sun", I do literally mean it.
The heat was practically killing us,
so it was rather silly of us to venture out to play.

I was feeling really depressed though,
I'm so glad there was a good buddy to cheer me up!

pend i finally understand why you used to wear sunglasses so often!
Cos I totally have an obsession with it now too!

We both decided to rekindle our childhood
by running around like idiots at the playground area.
But I really must say,
West Coast Park has fun playgrounds!
It was kinda sad though that there weren't
my favourite swings and see-saws.

Sad fact of life:
The world is changing and the things we used to play
in our childhood are sadly becoming extinct.
We are becoming ***. :(:( [I refuse to say it out.]

The monkey from Mekong Delta. lols.

So the story goes,
this retarded kid had so much fun
that he probably dropped his wallet
from his pocket around this area.
An hour later he finally realized it was missing!

A very worried and upset Ben and I
went trailing all the places that we went before.
After 2 rounds of long and thorough search,
we decided to give up,
assuming that someone had already taken it.

So we headed to Macs at West Coast Park
to grab a drink before going home.
Ben looked so sad so we decided to give it a final try before leaving.
When there really seemed to be no hope anymore...
We saw a guy picking up a wallet from the sand,
just in front of us! How lucky can Ben get!
With all my past experiences in losing wallets,
why wasn't I ever that fortunate before!

We were happy again and decided to have Macs for dinner!
It's kinda sinful but I really like Macs again!

Ben was too relieved and happy that he went crazy on an eating rampage.

As for me, I'm just happy to be having McWings. YumYum! :D

Btw, check out the disgusting chilli + mayo!

Hahas, after hanging out doing silly things and
singing loads of songs at the playground,
we decided to head home. :)

My good friend's going home soon,
and I think I will miss him.

Just for a day, it's nice to leave all the sadness, hurt and pain behind,
and just go back to where I was in the past;

2009-03-01T10:55:00.002+08:00

Looks like I've abandoned my blog for too long!
Sigh, life's really kinda boring now.
Everyone's so busy with school,
and alv, and, and daph have gone back to perth :(:(
I miss all my friends so much!!
I miss the bbcians too,
Feel like i've haven't seen them in ages :(
And I'm kinda worried about not finding an internship yet,
What if i cant find one!!!!
Sigh.
I feel depressed.

2009-01-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

I feel like I've reached the edge.
Suddenly everything's got me really thinkin',
I thought I managed to run away from it all,
But it's just my simple delusion,
The truth is I can never escape from it.
Time to wake up and face the brutal facts of reality.
Just when you thought you had it all,
It has to come falling apart.
And at the end of the day,
You realize you're still standing on your own.

Sometimes I really wished
You could understand how I feel
Sometimes it just seems so unfair
You never realized how much you keep hurting me
You just think im foolish and unreasonable,
It feels like I'm on the verge of giving up
Maybe it'll be better if i didnt care so much.

2009-01-16T12:02:00.018+08:00

I MISS OLD TIMES IN ST'NICKS!!

Took a trip down memory lane yesterday
with And and Daph back to St'nicks, for ORANGE BOWL!!!
And of course, some pretty intense cam-whoring!

My Fav! Orange bowl Mian Kan with lotsa lotsa chilli :)

Hahas, you can tell how spicy it is from daph's lips!

Happy Three friends :)

Curry Cheese Toast! :D
Reminds me of all the times we bought toast to eat in class!

Hahahas, and it was such a hilarious sight
to see our very adorable daph swaying her butt to and fro
when waiting for the toast to be done at the toast stall. LOLS!

They called this the "Happy Toilet", hahas but i dunno why.
Prob had some painting toilets competition going on?

Should have been labeled the "Dirty Toilet" instead,
by looks of how unclean it is.

i simply love how cute and and daph looked here!

And then we sneaked off to the rooftop,
(gosh in 4 years in St'nicks i never knew
we could go there!)
where daph wanted to
open her umbrella so that everyone will know
that we sneaked up there.

Hahas, luckily we managed to stop her.

Our fav mirror with the slimming effect!

love them loads. :)

Next up we went shopping!
Though it was for just a short while,
I really enjoyed myself!

Especially when daph bought the entire watsons shelf of kotex.
Conclusion: Daph loves kotex more than And does.

love hanging out with the twins! :D
cant wait for next wed! :):)

2008-12-20T15:24:00.004+08:00

Hehehes, I'm BACK!
Sorry for neglecting my blog for so long!

Yesterday was my last day of class...
Which means no more early mornings
to drag myself outta bed anymore! :)

But again, I'm gonna miss it,
the classroom, the big KAPLAN sign,
break time,
padang-ing or having curry chicken after class,
and especially,
my just laughing and crapping with my wild classmates! :(:(

Jak and David Lim (our FnB lecturer!)

:):):)

Bye guys, gonna miss y'all.

And now, it's the stressful period of assignment deadline and exam again.
Sigh.
Tell me about it.

2008-11-16T23:10:00.014+08:00

Sometimes,
I just wish to have more direction in life.
Why do I somehow always feel lost?
And I'm just waiting,
that someday I'll just wake up
and finally know in my heart,
What it is that I really want.

SATURDAY :D

Met up with Kahyee and Pistol!
And we went to CHOMP CHOMP for dinner! :)
It's really my first time there,
though I have always wanted to go there since sec?
Turned out to be quite a nice place though,
and it reminds me of Holland V.

Hahas, it was quite embarrassing to
take this picture!

The food we had! The stingray was really good!

So after dinner we made our way to my favourite
romantic place,
Marina Keppel Bay!
(actually, I dun really know whats the actual name. hahs.)

Thanks to Pistol and her camera,
I shall just let the pictures do the talking :)

KY and Pistol :)

Can anyone spot us?

And our dear Pistol kept running after the cruise to take pictures of it! Hahas, too bad we didn't take a pic of her running!

Deep in talk.

I love KY and of course the photographer as well!

How nice if we can have our weddings here!
LOLS.

Yepps, and that wraps the end of the day!

And I'm so so excited,
the whole PARTEH ANIMALS will be reunited sooon!!!!
Simply can't wait for ALV, ANDREA and DAPH to be back :D.

2008-11-11T10:30:00.027+08:00

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS Like a bitch
I would know

And you always think
Always speak
Correcticly

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, You don't really want to stay, no
You, but you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down


I'm liking Katy Pery's- Hot and Cold now,
Somehow it relates.


Went to attend Fenny's (my ex-colleague in Carlton) wedding
in Malaysia during the weekend!
I'm so happy for Fenny! :)

So I met Steph on saturday in JB to attend
the pre-ceremony buffet in the evening.
It was so heartwarming to see my ex-colleagues there too,
Kinda missed the times where i was working there.

Stayed over at Steph's house after,
where we both had to wake up at 4am the following morning.
Sunday was Fenny's BIG DAY!
This time Steph and I were part of the jie-mei tuan ! :D
So it was fun to make things difficult for the guys and the bridegroom,
and try to make them give us much angbaos as possible,
though we didn't really succeed much in the end.

Conclusion is,
Weddings are simply so sweet :)
I can't wait for my friends to get married!!
I'll feel so happy and excited for them when that day comes!
Lols.
I think the first person I'll be targeting will be Vonn!


FENNY! The pretty bride :):)



The beautiful wedding gown!











    HAPPILY married :D



  Me, Steph, Fenny













After it all,
We were exhausted, but happy for the newly-weds.

Went to have lunch and did some shopping shortly after!


I love a friend who can drive!


Time for some retail therapeutic shopping :D:D!


Cam-whoring with food, as usual.
But M'sia's rojak is way nicer than SG's rojak!



And it was back home after all the fun! :D


And so they lived happily ever after.



THE END.

2008-11-03T02:39:00.002+08:00

These few days have been a living hell for me.

If only it could be as simple as a bad nightmare,
And I could wake up from it.

I'm really so grateful to Ben and Mel for everything, and just being there for me.

Hahas Ben you're currently the sweetest guy on my list.
Thanks for accompanying and cheering me up on my Halloween night,
although you must have felt so exhausted after work. :)
It was so sweet of you to turn up with an entire tom and jerry tissue box,
and a big hug.
Of course not to forget his big green jacket,
And his silly, kiddish jokes that never fail to crack me up.

And Mel thanks for being such an angel (for once), hahas just kidding,
of course you're always nice and lovable!
I love you Mel for all the advise, encouragement and support!
You're a great friend through and through. :)
Thanks babe for being so sweet and thoughtful.

For now, I just wonder how I'm gonna survive this.
Cus this time,
i'm really broken.

I'm so tired to carry on
Someone please bandage my heart up
Cos it wont stop bleeding
I've cried for so many hours,
yet the tears still keep running

2008-10-28T22:52:00.005+08:00

Went singing with Kevin today!
Finally I got to do something that I wanted to do for a long long time.

Although it was only the two of us,
i really enjoyed myself and had a great time :):)
It was fun singing and fooling around,
Especially when Kevin is such a big joker.
Lols.
And I love him a lot for that!

If it was a mistake right from the start
Was I wrong to have held on
Could I have let go
And then maybe you were never the one who's hurting me
I'm just hurting myself
Look into our eyes
And you'll see the hurt in all of us
Why are we all moving in pointless circles
With no path to the finish line
Would things be different if you never met me and i never met you
Would we all be happier people
Yet the thought of losing you breaks my heart more than anything
Because I've fallen in too deep a long time ago

2008-10-28T21:22:00.007+08:00

I realised it's almost a week since I've blogged!
My exam ended officially last saturday and I'm happily enjoying 1 week of break now! :)

MONDAY

Went to celebrate kahyee's 20th birthday!!
Had loads of fun with pend, pistol, lynette, lovelle, xiang and of course with our pretty birthday girl!
kahyee, im so loving the way you have gai bian xing xiang!! Lols.

Yeahs and I'm ashamed to be late for two hours,
simply cos I overslept all the way till 12 pm. :0
Though I missed out on a nice lunch,
I reached Suntec just in time to indulge in some old-school arcade fun with the girls.
Hehs, arcade is really exciting when you have so many friends around.

I bought a dress (which i have been looking for so long) and some bohemian earrings too,
which made me happyhappyhappy :)
We decided to go to Singapore Flyer to end off the day and have dinner at Popeyes!

Hahas, and of course our dear pistol was acting like a tourist again,
taking photos like she's never been in SG before. Lols.

with pend. my fringe is disgusting now but i cant ever find the time to cut it!

Btw alvernia, just to let you know, u're heavily missed on our outings!
I'm so glad that you're finally coming home :)

2008-10-15T23:42:00.007+08:00

I'm feeling stressed.
Assignment's gonna be due and I haven't started!!!!
The worst thing is I don't even know how to.

Went to watch Painted Skin with Ben and Megi yesterday.,
It's a chinese epic movie and I really liked it!!
The actors and actresses are so good looking too :)
Gives you much afterthought on love after watching it.
And I was touched by how much the main lead loves his wife,
who stayed loyal to her even though he has feelings for another girl (who is a demoness).
The demoness was so pretty and threw herself at him,
yet he still didn't succumb.
I hope my future husband will be someone like that! :)
But again, these things only happens in the movies.

Heres some photos taken yest.

Ben and Mel have decided to become a couple!

Nahs kidding, they were just pretending.
I can now use this photo to bribe the both of them. HEHS.

oops, was caught sleeping during lesson.

Megi is back!!

2008-10-14T00:17:00.006+08:00

Tiredness.
My whole body is aching so badly when I didn't even exercise.
Weird.

This morning I accidentally cut my leg with a shaver, and a small patch of skin came off!!!
I kept bleeding non-stop till i sorta bandaged it for awhile.
Eeks, the thought of it still gives me the tremors.
I now have a phobia of the razor blade.

Today was fun shopping with Mel after school!
As usual theres tons of things that I wanna buy, but im brokebrokebroke.
Can some money please drop down from the sky?

So both of us spent quite some time looking for this shop in Far East that mysteriously disappeared.
I make that claim because I couldn't find the shop the next following day right after I entered, even though I searched the entire Far East building on every floor.
And I really liked the dress I saw in that shop :(
Maybe the shop and dress are haunted and its good thing that I didn't buy. Hehs.

Oh wells, I hope school will be fun tomorrow.

Kaplan toilet! :D

2008-10-11T03:15:00.010+08:00

Sometimes I really wish to turn back time,
right back to the times in JC;
where everything back then still seemed so carefree.
No heartbreaks, and no worries of getting hurt.

Alv, if that day ever comes,
We must remember to paint our celebration banner! LOLs.

I'm in a foul and cranky mood,
and the bad weather is making things worse.

Met up with ky, pist, and pend for dinner.

pretty Kah Yee :):)
Alrights, i admit, u're really getting prettier gurl! (hahas dun be BHB oks!)

Yeah, and we are luvin' desserts! As usual.

That is not relle mine, it's meant to be shared! Lols.
Two days of sinful desserts in a row,
and now I feel----- stressed!!
Time to go on a diet :(:(

I hope things haven't changed
And all of us are happy as before.

2008-10-10T13:09:00.033+08:00

Came down with a bad case of fever today,
so i decided not to go to school again.
I can see how screwed I am for my F&B module after skipping almost a week of lessons.
And not to forget, I have an assignment to start on as well.
Rahhs.

Anyways, had loads of fun yesterday! :) :)

THURSDAY

Went to an Indian Restaurant with Mel and Jak after school at Chinatown!
Was an interesting place cos the dishes there weren't priced at all and we got to pay any amount we wanted.
Indian food always reminds me my OCIP trip in India, where we all got food poisoning and almost died running to the toilets every 5 minutes or so. Lols.

The entire restaurant had an indian-ish flavour to it and quite a nice ambience.
The food was not bad as well!
Ohs, and not to forget, the waitress wearing saari with sports shoes. Lols.
Conclusion is, Indian food just isn't my cup of tea, but overall it was a fun experience.

Cam-whoring with Mel!

Jak was too nervous about her project interview with the indian restaurant manager that she refused to take photos. Lols.

Met Ben afterwards to catch RocknRolla.
I guess I was really not intellectual enough to understand the movie.
Someone please tell me why they have such high ratings!
We were so bored we left halfway and sneaked into another theatre.

The scandalous duo! Hehs. :P

Livin' and luvin' GREEN!

Then there was dinner with the BBCIANS :):):):)!!!!!!
Miss them LOADS since it's been ages since we've met up.
Went to Ding Tai Feng with Dor, Hp, Lei and Wai to have Xiao Long Baos!
YUMYUMYUMS :D
Joyce was so sweet to send us a letter and Bimbo Cookies. Hahas.
And yays she's coming back in Dec!

Had a lot of catching up with them, and lots of sweet stories to hear as well! :D
Lastly went to swiss hotel to chill!

The intellectual way of taking a photo!

Finally the perfect one!

Tired, but happy and satisfied. Love them loads!

And of course, my day wouldn't be complete without a late-night call from you and hearing your voice at the end of the day. :) loves.

I can be with all the people in the world,
and still be missing you at the same time.

2008-10-07T21:48:00.003+08:00

I finally went for my long-awaited kbox with lin today!
Havent sang in awhile already, so i was really glad that lin was finally free to accompany me (though she was still itching very badly) :)
Too bad alv and xiang weren't there with us.
alv i miss you loads! Hurry come back to Singapore, will you?.
And to xiang:
although you dont really sing much, your lameness and the funny things you do when u sing or talk is greatly missed. LOLs.

Anws poor lin and ky got bitten after sitting on rattan chairs in starbucks. And pend got bitten the same way too in the past. Conclusion is, if ure unlucky, u may just get bitten by termites when u sit on a rattan chair. So yeahs stay away from those chairs and dun let the chair bugs bite!

Im exhausted but happy that i had fun.
Nites :)

Boy I love you so,
Look in these eyes
They'll they you where this could go;

HB, I love you more than you'll ever know.

2008-10-06T23:47:00.005+08:00

FnB module has become as torturous as Tan Buay Seh's econs lessons in CJ.
For those who have sat through TBS's infamously deadening and bore-you-to-death lessons, hehs you know what I mean.

After class was tuitioning my "favourite" student, who has never ever smiled to me in her entire life, even though I have already been teaching her for 2 whole months.
Teaching her is always an enormous chore, and after every lesson with her I feel that I've just came back fighting a war.

Went shopping yesterday with Lin and Xiang!!!!
Absolute luuuurve shopping :D I'm so proud of my great buy that's absolutely cheap and nice!
Hahas, I can always count on them to cheer up my day.

Love lin and xiang LOADS!

Hehes, Xiang is so pretty now! And Cute. :) :)

Met up with KahYee later on at starbucks at city hall. I really feel for her, hope shes strong enough to overcome what shes going through now.
And poor lin got badly bitten by weird bugs while sitting on the chair :(:( mopiko isnt a very effective medicine afterall.

Sigh, im getting fatter and uglier now. DEPRESSED. oh wells.

And I keep praying with all of my heart that one day, you will truly be mine.

2008-10-04T21:15:00.008+08:00

Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through-;

My memories have faded with the passing of time, and all that's left are the meaningless photographs, and the pathetic picture that I live in everyday.
All i want is to forget how it feels like to have a home,
so that I wont feel the emptiness without one.
Why do i always feel like im the adult instead of you?
How you can simply abandon the mess, lead your own life, i will never understand.
And I've decided to give up trying to make things right,
cos i simply dun have the strength to do it alone.

Spent the day at home watching ANTM Cycle 11, as recommended by Jak.
Interesting how this time they accepted a "pre-opt" transvestite as one of the models, so i really wonder how she managed to cover up in a bikini.
Watching it just shows that no matter how pretty a girl is, her beauty fades when she is bitchy.
But again, it wouldn't be that interesting without all the drama. Hehs.

Weekends pass so quickly, tmr is Sunday and it's school all over again!
And gosh, F&B is so boring.
Oohs I'm trying to learn to speak some vietnamese from Megi (: and stupid Ben keeps laughing and making fun of my accent. irritating BHB. Hehs.

I really like this photo of Kevin, hahas. Hurry come back, alrites?

All I can do, is look at your pictures and realize that I miss you even more.

2008-10-02T23:09:00.011+08:00

When I born, I black
When I grow up, I black
When I go in Sun, I black
When I scared, I black
When I sick, I black
And when I die, I still black

And you white fellow
When you born, you pink
When you grow up, you white
When you go in sun, you red
When you cold, you blue
When you scared, you yellow
When you sick, you green
And when you die, you gray

And you calling me colored?

Kinda liked this poem that pend sent me. Ironic how we are so eager to always judge others before reflecting on our own actions.

Lessons are boring now, and F&B really isn't that fun as what I expected it to be. Ended up doodling and doing silly stuff in class instead.

(credits go to Mr. BHB- Baby Hugs Ben)

Sigh, everyone's so busy now, so hardly anyone has time to meet. Feels like ages since I've met with the BBCians. And Miss Lin is so busy too, to ever spend time with Xiang and I. But i got my chance to work with lin yest, before we spent some quality time together chatting and eating chippy! Yum yum. And yes, someone please date me out for shopping (: Feels like i havent shopped in ages!

Waitresses for SKII tea party. (It's kinda weird but we were waitressing in a department store)

My dear lin :)

Went to the movies with Ben and Megi today to watch Eagle Eye! Exciting and NICE! Sigh, miss watching movies with someone who's not around, and he never understands. Hahas it's fun hanging around with my new vietnamese classmates (:(:

Ben, I, Megi

Sigh, theres school tmr again.

then again, i'm suffering from a serious case of missing YOU.
counting down the days till u're back;

2008-09-29T23:07:00.006+08:00

Yays, my new blog! Took me hours to get this done though it just required simple copying and pasting. Oh wells. I'm a complete HTML moron. But at least it's done! And I really do like my blogskin :)

Skipped school today, was simply too exhausted from the serious lack of sleep for the past few nights. So i'm proud to say i slept 19 hours since last night, and lazed around the whole day today.

Skyped the entire saturday night till 4 am with alv before leaving for the airport with kevin.
Simply love my dear alv, always feel a galleon times better after talking to her, and im so grateful to have her as one of my bestest.

Spent my last moments with kevin before i sent him off, sigh i know im so gonna miss him godzillions though during his long absence. Hope this 3 weeks pass in a blink of an eye.

Love Him alotalotalot.

Attended church early in the morning afterwards, got to know the youth ministry people all thanks to Ben.
hmms i do miss church sessions with Jacq! Haven't seen her in such a long long time.
Finally headed home for my 19 hours of sleep in the evening (: I LOVE. hehs.